so i'm not heading to the gym tonight but my roommate and i took an hour walk around campus, so that was really good. burned a lot of cals, i'm negative for the day right now (since all i've had so far is the slimfast snack bar) and i might do some yoga tonight. supposed to be a higher calorie day.....

down to 153! sorry couldn't post this morning because i had to be at work early. tomorrow will be long work day too.

otherwise it's 3 pm and i've only had 120 cals (a slimfast snack). i should let today be a higher cal day though, just to keep my body guessing. i will work out later and have a good dinner.

i need a nap. i'm exhausted.

so as i forgot to eat, i also forgot to work out... argh. and then my parents called, and so that took out any hope of going to the gym (it still closes early until school starts)

i did get in some stretching and situps and yoga though. not a lot, but something is better than nothing.

dinner was about 200 calories, so that was good, a little chicken lettuce pita.

slim fast snack: 120
chicken pita: 193

313 cals for the day,
178 net, so pretty good.

wish i coulda worked out more, but tomorrow is another day!

it's 3:30 right now, and i still haven't eaten anything all day.

i genuinely forgot to eat before i had to go to work (get so used to feeling hungry that it's not a sign that you should eat anymore) and then i had a meeting right through lunch (til 2:30).

got home at 2:30, told myself i couldn't eat anything until i had had two glasses of water, which i finally did, and then told myself i have to do the dishes (our dishwasher doesn't work and they were way piling up), so now it's 3:30, and i still haven't eaten anything.

plus now i'm going to go take out the garbage and go by our apartment office because of our dishwasher and lack of coffee table.

it'll practically be dinner time before i can eat! : )

and my roommate isn't home so it's ok i'm not eating!!

i love days like this

ha! 155. very quickly, very nice.

just gotta keep it up. the beginning is the easiest and the quickest, so i have to not be disappointed as the weight loss slows.

but woohoo!!!

i just had dinner, my fruit and cheese plate, which i figure is about 330 calories. not great, but considering the only other thing i had today was another slim fast snack (which, btdubbs, the peanut butter caramel, also at 120 cals, is just as delicious as the rich chewy caramel.)

so....

Friday was 830 total, 732 net
Saturday was 630 total, 380 net
Today is 447 total, 69 net


not too shabby. a bit like a reverse 2-4-6-8 diet, although i usually consider net cals when figuring that out. really, it's just incredibly varied, which is what i like. i feel that helps keep the body guessing and keeps the weight loss working.

i can just feel it.

yes, that's right, 157 already. i love the first few days of getting back into the swing of things. it gives you that extra push, that extra incentive to keep going.

it's almost scary how quickly i get back into it, back into relishing the feeling of being hungry because it means i'm winning.

i am hungry for breakfast this morning but i don't want to eat too early so as then to alarm my roommate as to something going on....hold on, i'm going to go create a dirty dish in the sink.

ok back. so i will eventually have my breakfast shake and my slimfast snack for lunch, but right now i am making myself drink this water bottle (at least two glasses full) first, to get more of my water intake in and fill my belly so i'm less hungry.

doin' good, just got to keep it up!!

i've had 630 cals today.

slim fast shake: 170
slim fast snack: 120
healthy choice pizza: 340


i really feel like eating something. i mean, i'm hungry, but it's more about just wanting to eat something. i hate that.

oh well. i'm not going to eat now, i've decided. i'm going to talk to the bf for a little bit, then it's bedtime.

630 cals total today, with a net 380 cals, so not too shabby...just easing into it.

just gotta keep it up.

just finished working out. quick one because stupid gym was only open til 2 until school starts. oh well, something is better than nothing, and better to ease back into it. burned 250 cals, nothing special, but definitely a great start.

ps, slim fast optima rich chewy caramel bars are DELICIOUS! plus i need all the vitamins i can get, so it's not too bad.

: )

159 today. i'm hoping a bit of this is period bloat also, which would be nice.
i can't wait to go work out today after work. yeee!

oh and i forgot to say, my boyfriend and i are going on a weight-loss challenge. we both need to lose a ton of weight, me 50 or 55, him at least 70. in any event, so we're doing this challenge where the first person to lose 10 pounds gets $10 and the loser has to cook a healthy meal for the winner, and every 10 pounds we reset.

of course, i'm going to lie. i figure if i reach 15 pounds lost before he reaches 10, then i'll be like, oh, i lost 10 pounds! i win!

otherwise he can just keep winning, and i'll keep losing weight in secret. i know it's a losing battle because guys lose weight way quicker than girls, but he needs the motivation to lose weight, so it's all good.

so back from being home for summer, up to 160 from 135. *sigh*
was really good up until last two weeks of vacay, where just went crazy on the trip. but now it's time to get back on track, and i think it's going to go really well. especially because i have to spend so much time at work.

ate a lot today, but that's just because getting back into the swing of things, so it's ok. it's a marathon, not a sprint (although a little sprinting would be nice for the beginning...)

target shake: 170 cals
slimfast snack bar: 120 cals
quesadilla: 560 cals

the tortillas really killed me on the quesadillas (i'm trying to actually eat somewhat of meals for dinner. before i would just eat a lot of small, low-cal salty snacks. even if this way i'm eating a bit more, i'm trying to be a little healthier)
anyway, the tortillas were way bad. i think next time i'll make them with pitas, which are half the cals, or just one tortilla, which is still pretty bad (who would have thought?)

in any event, according to thedailyplate.com, i'm under my calorie goal to lose 3 pounds per week. and at least at this starting out point as my body readjusts to healthy eating, i can lose 3 pounds per week.

we'll see!!!

http://www.slate.com/id/2102228/

an article fasters might find interesting....

AHHH!!! 130!!!! i'm sure it's water weight loss from the laxative effect of the smoothie i had last night, which, not to be gross, wasn't necessarily pleasant but now i feel greeaaaatt!! oh i'm so happy. what a great weight to go home at! i can't wait for my family and my boyfriend to see me. : )

wooohoo!

oh, today was WONDERFUL! i mean, most of the day itself sucked, but i only had 189 calories, and 89 of those cals was from a smoothie that i got with a metabolizing booster. the whole thing had a laxative effect, which i never take laxatives, but it's nice to get a sort of natural laxative boost. i feel great!

133 baby! still a long way to go, but it's something. i've GOT to be strong over spring break. i can't fuck this progress up....

*sigh*

i told myself to eat more today. so far it's 328 cals. i don't want to eat any more but i should. i want to throw off my body, keep it guessing. when i do that i seem to lose the most weight.

had a great workout today. it was only 35 minutes on the stairs (plus regular 8 rowing and 25 lifting/crunches/strength traning) but i loooove working out on the stairs. i work out so hard for some reason, and not to be gross, but sweat a ton. it's a fantastic workout.

gotta have something for dinner, but at 11 pm, what?

134! haven't been there yet this year. it's kind of disappointing to know i'm doing all this work just to be ready to gain it all back when i go home.

although, i used to top out 145 when i would be in a gaining cycle, now it's 140, so at least that's something.

i've got to take heart that i've lost 50 pounds since last year. i just haven't lost a lot this year. i mean, 30 pounds (i gained over the summer), but i've been around 135-145 for forever.

just gotta keep strong. yesterday was great - 270 cals with 546 cals burned, so negative 276 calories for the day. i looooove days like that.

i should probably have a higher calorie day today, though, to balance things out...
sigh.

ahh, 135. i could still lose a pound or two before i go home thursday, so that would be nice.

i didn't go work out yesterday : ( but i really want to today, however last night i was having dreams/nightmares and i kicked really hard a pulled a calf muscle. i know, it sounds ridiculous, but it hurt like hell, i woke up and almost died. i couldn't move my leg and it was just searing pain. now i'm limping around this morning. if nothing else i'll stay off cardio and work the non-legs.

so i was talking to my friend last night and telling him how on saturday i put in 14 hours and the only time i off i took was an hour and a half to go work out. and he's like, ok..you work all day and then your only break you work out? most people would eat, or relax, or something. and you're telling me you don't have an eating disorder?

i was like...uh..change the subject. i don't really care if he knows, we both have issues and we can talk about it, so he wouldn't pressure me either way about it. now my boyfriend? a different story. he has no clue what i do, but still worries about me.

but this is getting long again. i have to get ready for work.
adios.

ended up with 270 calories yesterday, with a 400 cal deficit - yay!

i'm back down to 136 and i'd really like to lose a few more pounds before i go home for spring break and gain like 10 back.

i'm really happy with my progress but i keep getting setbacks and cycle through 135-140. why can't i cycle at 110-115? that would be so much nicer. *sigh*...

for a month i've stayed in this cycle...i've got to break it.
argh.

mmm, it's wonderful. i've only a 170 cal shake today, and i burned 680 calories at the gym. i'm going to eat something for "dinner" seeing as its midnight, but nothing big.

i hate my job, but i guess there is one perk to being in the office for 14 hours at a time...no one bugging you to eat, and no temptations either!!

i was way up this morning from drinking last night, but i'm not worried. today was fantastic.