perfectingme

working out

2007-08-21T22:44:32Z

so i'm not heading to the gym tonight but my roommate and i took an hour walk around campus, so that was really good. burned a lot of cals, i'm negative for the day right now (since all i've had so far is the slimfast snack bar) and i might do some yoga tonight. supposed to be a higher calorie day.....

153

2007-08-21T18:59:43Z

down to 153! sorry couldn't post this morning because i had to be at work early. tomorrow will be long work day too.

otherwise it's 3 pm and i've only had 120 cals (a slimfast snack). i should let today be a higher cal day though, just to keep my body guessing. i will work out later and have a good dinner.

i need a nap. i'm exhausted.

forgetting

2007-08-21T03:45:58Z

so as i forgot to eat, i also forgot to work out... argh. and then my parents called, and so that took out any hope of going to the gym (it still closes early until school starts)

i did get in some stretching and situps and yoga though. not a lot, but something is better than nothing.

dinner was about 200 calories, so that was good, a little chicken lettuce pita.

slim fast snack: 120
chicken pita: 193

313 cals for the day,
178 net, so pretty good.

wish i coulda worked out more, but tomorrow is another day!

forgot to eat

2007-08-20T19:28:12Z

it's 3:30 right now, and i still haven't eaten anything all day.

i genuinely forgot to eat before i had to go to work (get so used to feeling hungry that it's not a sign that you should eat anymore) and then i had a meeting right through lunch (til 2:30).

got home at 2:30, told myself i couldn't eat anything until i had had two glasses of water, which i finally did, and then told myself i have to do the dishes (our dishwasher doesn't work and they were way piling up), so now it's 3:30, and i still haven't eaten anything.

plus now i'm going to go take out the garbage and go by our apartment office because of our dishwasher and lack of coffee table.

it'll practically be dinner time before i can eat! : )

and my roommate isn't home so it's ok i'm not eating!!

i love days like this

155 bitches!

2007-08-20T14:00:31Z

ha! 155. very quickly, very nice.

just gotta keep it up. the beginning is the easiest and the quickest, so i have to not be disappointed as the weight loss slows.

but woohoo!!!

nice net

2007-08-19T23:17:59Z

i just had dinner, my fruit and cheese plate, which i figure is about 330 calories. not great, but considering the only other thing i had today was another slim fast snack (which, btdubbs, the peanut butter caramel, also at 120 cals, is just as delicious as the rich chewy caramel.)

so....

Friday was 830 total, 732 net
Saturday was 630 total, 380 net
Today is 447 total, 69 net

not too shabby. a bit like a reverse 2-4-6-8 diet, although i usually consider net cals when figuring that out. really, it's just incredibly varied, which is what i like. i feel that helps keep the body guessing and keeps the weight loss working.

i can just feel it.

157

2007-08-19T14:03:08Z

yes, that's right, 157 already. i love the first few days of getting back into the swing of things. it gives you that extra push, that extra incentive to keep going.

it's almost scary how quickly i get back into it, back into relishing the feeling of being hungry because it means i'm winning.

i am hungry for breakfast this morning but i don't want to eat too early so as then to alarm my roommate as to something going on....hold on, i'm going to go create a dirty dish in the sink.

ok back. so i will eventually have my breakfast shake and my slimfast snack for lunch, but right now i am making myself drink this water bottle (at least two glasses full) first, to get more of my water intake in and fill my belly so i'm less hungry.

doin' good, just got to keep it up!!

perfectingme @ 2007-08-18T22:43:00

2007-08-19T03:12:07Z

i've had 630 cals today.

slim fast shake: 170
slim fast snack: 120
healthy choice pizza: 340

i really feel like eating something. i mean, i'm hungry, but it's more about just wanting to eat something. i hate that.

oh well. i'm not going to eat now, i've decided. i'm going to talk to the bf for a little bit, then it's bedtime.

630 cals total today, with a net 380 cals, so not too shabby...just easing into it.

just gotta keep it up.

pumped

2007-08-18T18:08:27Z

just finished working out. quick one because stupid gym was only open til 2 until school starts. oh well, something is better than nothing, and better to ease back into it. burned 250 cals, nothing special, but definitely a great start.

ps, slim fast optima rich chewy caramel bars are DELICIOUS! plus i need all the vitamins i can get, so it's not too bad.

: )

one down, 50 to go....

2007-08-18T14:37:19Z

159 today. i'm hoping a bit of this is period bloat also, which would be nice.
i can't wait to go work out today after work. yeee!

oh and i forgot to say, my boyfriend and i are going on a weight-loss challenge. we both need to lose a ton of weight, me 50 or 55, him at least 70. in any event, so we're doing this challenge where the first person to lose 10 pounds gets $10 and the loser has to cook a healthy meal for the winner, and every 10 pounds we reset.

of course, i'm going to lie. i figure if i reach 15 pounds lost before he reaches 10, then i'll be like, oh, i lost 10 pounds! i win!

otherwise he can just keep winning, and i'll keep losing weight in secret. i know it's a losing battle because guys lose weight way quicker than girls, but he needs the motivation to lose weight, so it's all good.

back on track

2007-08-18T04:28:21Z

so back from being home for summer, up to 160 from 135. *sigh*
was really good up until last two weeks of vacay, where just went crazy on the trip. but now it's time to get back on track, and i think it's going to go really well. especially because i have to spend so much time at work.

ate a lot today, but that's just because getting back into the swing of things, so it's ok. it's a marathon, not a sprint (although a little sprinting would be nice for the beginning...)

target shake: 170 cals
slimfast snack bar: 120 cals
quesadilla: 560 cals

the tortillas really killed me on the quesadillas (i'm trying to actually eat somewhat of meals for dinner. before i would just eat a lot of small, low-cal salty snacks. even if this way i'm eating a bit more, i'm trying to be a little healthier)
anyway, the tortillas were way bad. i think next time i'll make them with pitas, which are half the cals, or just one tortilla, which is still pretty bad (who would have thought?)

in any event, according to thedailyplate.com, i'm under my calorie goal to lose 3 pounds per week. and at least at this starting out point as my body readjusts to healthy eating, i can lose 3 pounds per week.

we'll see!!!

perfectingme @ 2007-03-01T10:51:00

2007-03-01T15:52:03Z

http://www.slate.com/id/2102228/

an article fasters might find interesting....

perfectingme @ 2007-03-01T09:55:00

2007-03-01T14:56:23Z

AHHH!!! 130!!!! i'm sure it's water weight loss from the laxative effect of the smoothie i had last night, which, not to be gross, wasn't necessarily pleasant but now i feel greeaaaatt!! oh i'm so happy. what a great weight to go home at! i can't wait for my family and my boyfriend to see me. : )

wooohoo!

perfectingme @ 2007-03-01T01:13:00

2007-03-01T06:15:16Z

oh, today was WONDERFUL! i mean, most of the day itself sucked, but i only had 189 calories, and 89 of those cals was from a smoothie that i got with a metabolizing booster. the whole thing had a laxative effect, which i never take laxatives, but it's nice to get a sort of natural laxative boost. i feel great!

perfectingme @ 2007-02-28T09:42:00

2007-02-28T14:43:32Z

133 baby! still a long way to go, but it's something. i've GOT to be strong over spring break. i can't fuck this progress up....

*sigh*

perfectingme @ 2007-02-27T22:46:00

2007-02-28T03:48:55Z

i told myself to eat more today. so far it's 328 cals. i don't want to eat any more but i should. i want to throw off my body, keep it guessing. when i do that i seem to lose the most weight.

had a great workout today. it was only 35 minutes on the stairs (plus regular 8 rowing and 25 lifting/crunches/strength traning) but i loooove working out on the stairs. i work out so hard for some reason, and not to be gross, but sweat a ton. it's a fantastic workout.

gotta have something for dinner, but at 11 pm, what?

perfectingme @ 2007-02-27T10:02:00

2007-02-27T15:06:04Z

134! haven't been there yet this year. it's kind of disappointing to know i'm doing all this work just to be ready to gain it all back when i go home.

although, i used to top out 145 when i would be in a gaining cycle, now it's 140, so at least that's something.

i've got to take heart that i've lost 50 pounds since last year. i just haven't lost a lot this year. i mean, 30 pounds (i gained over the summer), but i've been around 135-145 for forever.

just gotta keep strong. yesterday was great - 270 cals with 546 cals burned, so negative 276 calories for the day. i looooove days like that.

i should probably have a higher calorie day today, though, to balance things out...
sigh.

perfectingme @ 2007-02-26T10:34:00

2007-02-26T15:45:54Z

ahh, 135. i could still lose a pound or two before i go home thursday, so that would be nice.

i didn't go work out yesterday : ( but i really want to today, however last night i was having dreams/nightmares and i kicked really hard a pulled a calf muscle. i know, it sounds ridiculous, but it hurt like hell, i woke up and almost died. i couldn't move my leg and it was just searing pain. now i'm limping around this morning. if nothing else i'll stay off cardio and work the non-legs.

so i was talking to my friend last night and telling him how on saturday i put in 14 hours and the only time i off i took was an hour and a half to go work out. and he's like, ok..you work all day and then your only break you work out? most people would eat, or relax, or something. and you're telling me you don't have an eating disorder?

i was like...uh..change the subject. i don't really care if he knows, we both have issues and we can talk about it, so he wouldn't pressure me either way about it. now my boyfriend? a different story. he has no clue what i do, but still worries about me.

but this is getting long again. i have to get ready for work.
adios.

perfectingme @ 2007-02-25T10:31:00

2007-02-25T15:37:30Z

ended up with 270 calories yesterday, with a 400 cal deficit - yay!

i'm back down to 136 and i'd really like to lose a few more pounds before i go home for spring break and gain like 10 back.

i'm really happy with my progress but i keep getting setbacks and cycle through 135-140. why can't i cycle at 110-115? that would be so much nicer. *sigh*...

for a month i've stayed in this cycle...i've got to break it.
argh.

perfectingme @ 2007-02-24T23:56:00

2007-02-25T04:57:39Z

mmm, it's wonderful. i've only a 170 cal shake today, and i burned 680 calories at the gym. i'm going to eat something for "dinner" seeing as its midnight, but nothing big.

i hate my job, but i guess there is one perk to being in the office for 14 hours at a time...no one bugging you to eat, and no temptations either!!

i was way up this morning from drinking last night, but i'm not worried. today was fantastic.

perfectingme @ 2007-02-24T09:18:00

2007-02-24T14:27:29Z

a hung out with a friend all last night which was wonderful. he and i haven't hung out like that since last semester, but with both of us working so much, it's just difficult.

in any event, i was pretty good..a little bad, but nothing major. it could have been way worse, so i'll try to take comfort in that.

he was so cute though, we were looking through my pantry to find something to snack on since we didn't have dinner, and he saw my meijer thin quick (the generic equivalent to slim fast) and he's like, "what the hell are you doing with these?" i was like, i just have them for breakfast sometimes, which is true. although then i left out the part that i'll have one at breakfast and nothing else until like 11 pm when i'll eat something else small....

it was just sweet, he was being very protective. we were watching batman cartoons together (i know, right?) and he's like, i hate your boyfriend, because you are like the perfect girl. i feel bad for him because he is so in awe of my bf's and my relationship and he's just having a really hard time getting into one. he's sleeping with like, 4 different girls on a rotating basis, but....

i'm rambling. anyway, it was an awesome night, and even though my weight has fluctuated up (i know it'll go back down by tomorrow) i'm okay with that for right now because it was such a fun night. i love just talking with him. we could talk all night. i love the friendship we've developed. although a ton of people think we are dating (heaven forbid a guy and girl just spend time together) including a guy from one of my classes who we saw at the store, and then he kept pulling this shit in the video store when we were trying to pick a movie, he's like, if you weren't my wife.... i love seeing the reactions on people's faces with shit like that.

but alas, work has to STEAL MY SOUL (and i just found out i may not be getting a promotion next semester, which if i don't i'm quitting, because i am killing myself over this fucking newspaper for what??) so i guess i better go in...

adios!

perfectingme @ 2007-02-16T00:13:00

2007-02-16T06:13:24Z

i don't usually weigh myself at night, but 136! possibly 135 tomorrow morning, maybe? if i just get down to 133, the lowest weight since sophmore or junior year of high school! and then only 4 pounds away from being in 120s....
ahh, it would be bliss.

perfectingme @ 2007-02-14T02:00:00

2007-02-14T07:02:40Z

heinously thousands of calories consumed this weekend.
the only worthwhile excuseable one was saturday night when we celebrated an early valentine's day at this ridiculously awesome restaurant. a five course tasting menu along with a wine tasting to go along....*sigh*
if i had been good the other days, i would have been fine.
i've got to find a way to break this habit that i let myself get into. i'm soooo bad around him, and i'm not even smoking anymore, so i can't blame it on munchies.
ARGH!

well, if nothing else just keep going strong right now. lose as much weight as possible until you see him again, which won't be for another two weeks....

perfectingme @ 2007-02-07T23:09:00

2007-02-08T04:49:01Z

the only good thing about deadline days at work - no time to eat and no one to question it. i had a 170 calorie shake for breakfast and that's it so far. i worked out, burning 300 or 400 cals, and i'll have something when i get home, but nothing big. i'll be in the negative for today, so that's great.

perfectingme @ 2007-02-07T00:00:00

2007-02-07T05:01:43Z

stupid alcohol. all the lost-willpower-binging threw me up to 140 again. i'm back to 138 but this whole thing is ridiculous. i lose 5 pounds, i gain 5 pounds. i lose it and i gain it again. i can't make any headway. and i'll probably get back down to 136 again by thursday when my boyfriend comes up for the weekend and just gain it all back again. ARGGH!

gotta make some headway!

*sigh*